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[16 Aug 2006|05:35am] |
im not going to do this anymore. I think im done with the whole livejournal thing. everyone has grown up grown apart..i started this thing a couple years ago and its time to finish it.
goodbye to all.
<333
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[17 Jun 2006|05:05am] |
soo guys
im not on anymore
cause well i dont have a computer
my life is goooodddd
ive been thinking recently about
what i am going to do with my life
so i decided i will go to college for
commercial art but basically major in
something to do with art
i dont know maybe ill be an art teacher?
or i will continue my dream of being a sexy
tattoo arteesttt
tomarow is another pride fest in grand rapids
:):) excited yes
i hung out with lea and jill today
funny girls
i had a lot of funnn
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[07 Jun 2006|01:39am] |
so omgggg pride fest was so much fun this year
walked with a whole bunch of gay people for a while
saw a whole bunch of fags i knew
it was just awesome
danced like all hell
it was just the bestttt
i didnt realise how many people i knew
okay so im going to be a tattoo artist when im older
me and kat are learning from bear this tattoo artist at
vicious ink
he taught us a lot of good tips :):):)
im confident this is what my career choice
is
im definetly excited :)
and proud of me self
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[03 Jun 2006|05:46pm] |
oh guys tommarow is a pride fest one!
ive never been so excited
okay yeah i have
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[29 May 2006|08:04am] |
so yesterday was such a nice day for sure
kat and I went to the beach
and well..it wasnt a beach i guess
cause there was glass
I didnt worry about fishys this time
so i went in the water
not like im cool or anything cause
it was just up to my knees
but still
i have one side of my hand with acrylic
nails
and the other is left ugly
cause i was so tired that i wanted to go home
i fell asleep right away
and now i am up at 8:06
which is good, cause i needed to get my scheduel on top
i miss mandy pants
i havent seen her in a while
i dont know..its kinda hard cause i dont get gas money
and then when i do, it fades away so quick
i need an oil change
prideee fest in ferndale bitches
im so excited!!
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[27 May 2006|03:40am] |
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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[26 May 2006|09:55pm] |
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pride fest is in like a week
im excited about that
um..yeah theres really not much to say
okay
bye
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[25 May 2006|07:50am] |
Remeber back in da time
When da only sign we had was picket
But now in '94 it be
This way somethin' come wicked
Gangs killin' others fo colors
Thangs that we wear fo fashion
Other brothers take it fo a reason
To be blastin' what da cuff is goin' on
Not soft like buttercupus but
Had enough of singin' dat same song
See I stayed across da street from da projects
Took out yo momma trash and groceries
To her trunk to keep my pockets
Fat like cellulite only been to jail one week
Fo some shullbit and I pray to God I won't repeat
I shoulda pulled it when I had da chance to
No I shouldna did dat 'cause if I did dat
Yall would not hear dat fat shit
Dat keeps you on yo tippy -
Toes like dat sellout not callin' no names
But really who's bad
I go through obstacles like a whole box
Of condoms you can't forget
Where you come from
Take a good look in the mirror and tell
Me do you like what you see
Masters of deception corruption and evil
But you're always quick to point the finger
At me
Won't somebody tell me
[Chorus]
I just don't understand
The ways of the world today
Sometimes I feel like there's nothing
To live for
So I'm longing for the days of yesterday
What gave you the right to misjudge me
And write me off on the wall
Acting as if you understand me
In reality you just don't know me at all
Sometimes I can't help but wonder
If this was how it's meant to be
But if you search deep enough in your soul
You'll always find a slight reminder of me
Won't somebody tell me
[Chorus]
A-yo
If we could all agree to lettin'
Our souls become free of that sweet
Bitterness then whose chest would
Have the most seeds
I keep misfocusin' my needs
And this stress on my back
With them caps they be blastin'
Into my knap sack
Ain't no accidental deathtraps
My mishap is the fact that
I'm destined to snap
It's when I feel as though my body's
Able to go my mind is ready to flow
Did you know first you catch
And then I throw
It's my own sense of time
If I'm late it's 'cause I'm endin' my day
Just when the sun shines
And still gently advising the arisin'
Of the moon as it rolls around
Into my soundproof dimension
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[19 May 2006|06:07pm] |
Are you listening?
We write a thousand pages, they're torn and on the floor
Headlights hammer the windows, we're locked behind these doors
And we are never leaving, this place is part of us
And all these scenes repeating are cold to the touch
My hands seem to deceive me
When I'm nervous or when I'm healthy
The scenery's all drawn...
They hang here from the walls dear,
Painting pictures, bleeding colors,
blanket the windows...
Sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
Your eyes see right through me.
These fights with your arms left beside.
One thing and one more says goodnight.
You've got the map come get to me.
These knuckles break before they bleed.
Tear out these veins that own my heart.
This skin that wears your lasting marks.
I've built these walls come get to me, come get to me.
Is this your lesson, a slight discretion,
The lines that keep you, the lines that sweep you.
Lock the doors from the inside...
Your face is so contagious, it wears announcements,
It leaves me breathless, I won't forget this. I won't forget.
Sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
Your eyes see right through me.
Let the walls have their say.
Let the walls have their say.
Let the walls have their say.
Let the walls have their say.
Let the walls have their say.
Have their say.
There's no conversation, words without remorse
And this television drowns the only source
Wake from these dreams of you in my arms
To the staircase where you hold your heart
This place, these walls mean everything to me.
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[14 May 2006|02:18am] |
oh you guys listen to my tear jerking story
Well when my mom had me
and she ploped me out
she took at a look at me
with tears in her eyes she looked
back at my dad and looked back at me
and said oh my god..im so used to ploping out beautiful
babies
and couldnt look at me for 45 minutes
and my uncle herb at the time was asked
is she cute
and hes like well..at least pat(my mom) had
two cute babies
and my grandad told my mom to just tell me
i was beautiful to keep my self esteem
this is very devistating
i was under the assumption i was a cute one
:(
no for real this is very depressing!
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[10 May 2006|06:47pm] |
cant wait till pride fest
it is an almost here one!!!
i hung out with kat for the last 2 days
and spent the nite
but for some reason i dont think she likes me
trying to cuddle with her when she is trying to sleep
last nite was funny
me and kat and someone else
cough trish omg cough
got high
and i opened kats car door
and then shut it
well kat looked over to me and goes
i swear i thought you got out of the car
and came back in
and then shes like omg
i feel like the golden girls
and then geneva omg this was the funniest thing
cause we stole her pot, and was scared she would notice
geneva when she came home was pissed
so anyways she goes in her bathroom
and then is like KAT KAT KAT GET OVER HERE
well kat goes in the bathroom scared as hell
and she was holding the bag
and shes like so kat, you like weed?
and kats just like umm....yeah? not knowing if she should admit that
well then genevas like..oh do you want to buy this off me?
kat thought she was getting blamed for stealing the pot
aha it was so funny
then kat later was like
geneva pulled me into the bathroom
and was like so you like weed huh?
and kat was like "I DIDNT KNOW IF I SHOULD ADMIT THAT I THOUGHT SHE KNEW WE TOOK HER WEED AND SHE WAS QUESTIONING ME"
omg it was just a funny one
anyways..life is better, im going back to school next year, and should graduate by next year
okay im gonna go exer-a-cise one
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[05 May 2006|10:55am] |
i hope something changes everything soon.
geneva through me out of the house yesterday and got a restraining order put against me.
I had everyone in that house, no joke attacking me about what happend with the credit card..so i lost it
i said i was sorry, i confessed to something i did wrong..i apologized i dont know how many times?
i paid her back for what i took..i cannot help it if the other person hasnt just yet. and thats what they
were all yelling at me for. Geneva just started SCREAMING over and over i was never going to live this down
and there is nothing i can do to redeem myself and how shes never taken from the family.
For everyone who knows geneva can hopefully say im a better person then she'll ever be
and for her to bitch at me for all ive done for her over the past 2 or 3 or however long monthes
nothing but be there for her and never ever ever get on her case about drinking and tell
her shes a bad parent..but the one time i have people on my ass for something ive done wrong, she cant do the same for me. So i lost it and said when you can actually go three days of having your own kid (talking about julian cause she finally got him back for a couple days and then went out drinking the same day and had me and trish watch him) then you'll have room to talk.
So shes like you faggot ass lesbian dyke get the fuck out of my house, and told my mom to get her daughter out of the house or shes calling the cops
so i was like yeah you have the cops come here smelling like pot and see what they say
so shes all oh im gonna fuck you up you stupid bitch
and blah blah fucking who cares blah
i finally got the reason i needed to call the cops on her, i never wanted her to lose her kids
or be the one to make her lose her kids but she gave me a reason to not care about her feelings for once
so i called the cops because she was smoking pot in the same room with julian RIGHT THERE breathing it in.
well anyways it didnt do anything, the cops didnt do anything about shit so yeah.
But tom called me last nite and was like, do you ever wonder what it feels like to be a fly on the wall?
and i was like umm..well no? hes like well i was. im like what are you talking about
hes like i was on the phone with your sister and she put me on hold, but she didnt know i could still hear her
so he heard everything everyone was saying..
he told me she turned everyone against me
and was even trying to get moo to hate me
shes all "we dont like auntie dawnie do we?" to julian
and told my mom not to bail me out or give me money
and my moms like dont worry geneva i wont hehe ahaha poop stick ok
and then dan came in (genevas friend) and she was telling him
everything ive ever done in my life and he was like shes messed up
shes a bitch i cant believe her
and she like that..
i dont have too many people in my life who i can rely on anymore now do i?
i really hope my friend who helped me spend money on the credit
card pulls through..because im not about to give dairrai all my money
to cover everything when it was both of our fault.
i mean ill have to if he doesnt pull through..but thats just another person
in my life who is gone like the fucking wind
i cannot stand my house..its old, so we have Ants ALLL over
everywhere you look you are gaurenteed to see an ant, no exageration
i dont have a room, or a bed, or even a couch so if i did stay there
i would be spending the nite with the ants on the ground
so like im really lost in this life right about now...i dont really belong
anywhere or with anyone it seems
even my own family turned on me let alone i had to give up a good friend
so like i said if this other good friend doesnt pull through, thats just another
person in my life who has vanished.
on a good note, we can move back to our trailor
and we do have a law suit
so like yeah..i hope we move back to it
but the world doesnt like to treat me fair lately
so i dont see that coming,
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[04 May 2006|03:29am] |
why should i care?
why do i care?
i actually hate this time
hate is a strong word..but i do mean hate
im a hater
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE
if there are any stronger words then
hate out there besides go play in
traffic and kill your miserable pathetic ugly ass
let me know
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[03 May 2006|02:12am] |
im being attacked by birds
i was innocently laying down on the couch with trish and geneva and then all of a sudden a bird a real live wild life bird from OUTSIDE flew over our heads and scared the bird flu right out of me
a real life bird was in the house!!!
oh brother and then i turned on the radio
and nelly furdtado came on
singing "IM LIKE A BIRD I ONLY FLY AWAYY"
god!! but to make that less exagerated that song
came on totally like 3 days ago
but still its not funny! i dont like birds
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[03 May 2006|02:02am] |
move along like i know ya do
i guess bitches come before friends
good to know im still a pretty down to earth person
i love my new gay guy alex
im having a blast with gay guys lately
and kat of a sexy fert
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[29 Apr 2006|01:56pm] |
omg i left out something major
you know how i was crabbing out the bird?!
IM A BIRD-ER-RR
HE DIED!!!
after seeing a feather on the top shelf
(i couldnt find the bird btw)
i was going to play a joke on geneva
saying this is what was left of the bird
so i picked the feather up and it was not just a feather
it was was the bird
i could only see the feather btw
well i panicked cause it was the bird
and it flew on my head
and i ran in genevas room
and now i guess the bird is dead
i am a bird-er-rr
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[29 Apr 2006|01:49pm] |
hung out with my old friend kayde
yeah i know suprise
she made up the word exflu-inator
cause we are here to save the
world from the bird flu
so i handed them out at the mall
saying we are part of the bird flu awareness
please take caution
then i said hi to a cute old lady
and she got this confused worried look on her
face
and shes like do i know you
and i was like yes, you do not remember me?!
and she was like did you work at the
and then named this random place
and i was like i sure did
and im like my name is dawn
and shes like doris!?
and im like yeah! thats it!
and it went on for like 5 mins of
just bullshitting her
and shes like oh so you know jenet
im like omg i love her!
it was just funny
then we hung out with kaydes girlfriend
and i slept from like 8 to 12:45 today
today and when i woke up
i was so confused on what day it was
but anyways
now im going to go hang out with dan
much love
bye
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[28 Apr 2006|02:44am] |
i am locked in my sisters bedroom because i knocked over trishas bird cage and i do not want to touch it to get it back in the cage and it is flopping all over the place
oh :(:(:( he likes to flip flop my way to
someone help me get the bird flu back in its cage before the cat eats it
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Has our conscience shown?
Has the sweet breeze blown?
Has all the kindness gone?
Hope still lingers on
I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I don't know why
Are we listening
To hymns of offering?
Have we eyes to see
That love is gathering?
All the words that I've been reading
Have now started the act of bleeding
Into one...into one...
So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down
'Cause it's the world I know
Oh it's the world I know
I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I don't know why..don't know why...
So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down
'Cause it's the world I know
Oh it's the world I know
So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world belo
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down
'Cause it's the world I know
Oh it's the world I know
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[27 Apr 2006|12:03am] |
so me and kat are totally cool
cause duh we met an awesome gay queer guy
at cicis pizza tonite
me and dan are sweet too cause
we met threeeee gay guys in flint
man i wish i could meet lesbians
like i can meet gay guys
gawddd
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